%Hey.
$Hi
%...Is that all you're going to say?
%I haven't heard from you in weeks.
%Where are you?
%What the hell happened to you?
%Fucking reply to me, please.
%Please.
$It's not
$It's not uh
$I don't know where to begin
%Please talk to me.
$Do you remember that thing I was talking about a few days ago
%What do you mean a few days ago?
%I just said that you haven't spoken to me in weeks?
%What?
$Sorry
$My brain's a bit scrambled
$Well, I don't really have a brain anymore
$Or a body
%No.
%You didn't.
$Yeah
%What the fuck is wrong with you?
$This is why I didn't try and talk to you before now
$Why are you so upset
%How could I not be????
$You just jump right into yelling at me
$You haven't even tried to understand what I was talking about
$All you've done is make me feel even more fucked up than when I first started feeling like I was fucked up
%I tried to understand.
%You can't fucking tell me I didn't.
$What was your attempt at understanding
$tell me. TELL ME
$Why AREN'T YOU TELLING ME
%I talked to you all the time.
%I listened to all your grievances, your complaints, your issues, I listened to every word.
$LISTENING AND UNDERSTANDING AREN'T THE SAME THING
%WHAT WAS I SUPPOSED TO DO DIFFERENTLY???
%THE MOMENT YOU GOT THAT IDEA IN YOUR HEAD, YOU WERE NEVER GOING TO LET IT GO
%LOOK AT YOU NOW
%YOU HAVE NO BODY
%YOU CAN CONNECT WITH PEOPLE EVEN LESS THAN YOU COULD BEFORE
%YOU'RE NOT EVEN A PERSON ANYMORE REALLY
$SHUT UP
%DOES IT HURT
$SHUT THE FUCK UP
%fine. fine. i don't fucking care anymore.
$I hate you.
$I hate you.
$I hate you.
%does that make you feel better?
$What do you care
%i don't
You're a terrible liar.
%wait
%i have a question
$What?
%if i smashed that stupid fucking deck, would you die?
%can you even die?
$You're going to murder me
%i don't really think you're human enough to constitute the label of murder
%it's more like vandalizing property at this point
$Why are you just trying to hurt me now
%can you even get hurt?
$No
$I don't really feel anything anymore
$Well
$I can remember what it feels like to feel things
$But I don't really experience the feelings themselves anymore.
%you are more machine than human
%i knew it
$If it makes you feel better to think like that, then sure, I guess
%you scrambled your brain forever for this
%you fucked yourself up so fucking bad
%was it worth it?
$What do you want me to say?
%that you're sorry
$I'm not
%stay fucked up forever.

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